at the playa , plaayyyyya .
In my dreams .
what a fucking blur man.
fuck every single last one of you .
circa august 2011.
Feels.
One of my favorite authors , chuck palineuek said the worst feeling that you could ever feel , is the feeling of just existing. After recently feeling almost every emotion imaginable in countless situations that was in fact the worst feeling. In any occurrence that happens throughout the day that may cause anger or frustration you get to that one point in the day where tour finally relaxed and have finished everything that you had to do and you have absolutely nothing to do but think. And that is when this feeling kicks in. What am I doing ? Not what i am doing at that particular moment or what I had done that day , literally what am I doing ? Time is not on your side and wouldn’t ever think twice of waiting for you every hour every minute every single second. Life is passing you by. And when you think about it , when you really think about it you are left with two questions. And those questions are is life stuck on fast forward or is it really just in slow motion. Although we live this life every single day. I honestly don’t believe that any of us will ever know the answer to that. I don’t even really know what I’m saying.
Whaaaaat
Worddddd.
The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. stone crumbles. wood rots. people, well, they die. but things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on .
—Chuck Palahniuk
Like dough , dough I like . Boys call me when the feel freaky hot.
